after MIA for so long, i thought i would just abandon this space. however, now i see the importance of this blog- to let me express my sorrowness and sadness when i have no one to turn to.
the first thing that came across my mind when you said such a thing to me, was to reply your email. but i know no matter how hard i try to explain, you will still think that i am wrong and i am whatever stupid word that you like to use to describe me.
seriously, i feel horrible. how can you say i dont care about my family? how can you say such a thing? yes, i may not know how to prioritize as i am really still new in the working life. moreover, it is such a crazy life i am having now. long working hours from monday to friday, most of the time i have to work on weekends too... do you think i am really good in adapting to new environment?
as for him, yes, i thought we were friends. but after that, i realize there is something special in him- the secure feeling that he provides. that is the feeling that i have been looking for after so long. and i remember i did tell you about it when you asked me again about him the second time. and i can assure you, he did stand a chance as long as i am able to presuade myself to be brave to accept a new one. i didnt even give others a chance to call me more than 5 minutes!! and you call that as i am lying to you, blah blah blah...
it is such a huge accusation and i really feel hurt deeply. i do not know what else should i say. i can only say,
"just continue with the misunderstanding in your mind, i am too tired to care about it. i know what i am doing and no one thinks it is wrong except you. i know it is no way to please each and everyone in life, and therefore, i will ignore what you have said though it hurts me badly."
10:27 PM
Sunday, May 9, 2010 COLOURED.
disappointment
after MIA for so long, i thought i would just abandon this space. however, now i see the importance of this blog- to let me express my sorrowness and sadness when i have no one to turn to.
the first thing that came across my mind when you said such a thing to me, was to reply your email. but i know no matter how hard i try to explain, you will still think that i am wrong and i am whatever stupid word that you like to use to describe me.
seriously, i feel horrible. how can you say i dont care about my family? how can you say such a thing? yes, i may not know how to prioritize as i am really still new in the working life. moreover, it is such a crazy life i am having now. long working hours from monday to friday, most of the time i have to work on weekends too... do you think i am really good in adapting to new environment?
as for him, yes, i thought we were friends. but after that, i realize there is something special in him- the secure feeling that he provides. that is the feeling that i have been looking for after so long. and i remember i did tell you about it when you asked me again about him the second time. and i can assure you, he did stand a chance as long as i am able to presuade myself to be brave to accept a new one. i didnt even give others a chance to call me more than 5 minutes!! and you call that as i am lying to you, blah blah blah...
it is such a huge accusation and i really feel hurt deeply. i do not know what else should i say. i can only say,
"just continue with the misunderstanding in your mind, i am too tired to care about it. i know what i am doing and no one thinks it is wrong except you. i know it is no way to please each and everyone in life, and therefore, i will ignore what you have said though it hurts me badly."
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