will try to take more videos on ppl's reactions towards my cutie pillow~
mum's best expression was after i end the video.
she said :-
"this shit very cute hor? see, got mouth, nose n eye brows... how come this shit's shape like this ger?? aren't it supposed to be in oval??"
11:18 AM
Monday, December 29, 2008 COLOURED.
choi!!
yes, the title for this post is choi... why is that so?? cause i met, no, not met. should say, i felt something unusual which i wish to "choi" it away...
it is something which i am afraid off the most, which is "dirty things" (肮脏东西).
the unwanted experience begins with a lazy bum, me, who wished to continue sleeping though its time to wake up for revision...
the alalm clock rang but i continue to sleep. suddenly, i can feel that there is a kid running up to my bed, n giggle softly beside of me. i thought it was my little nephew, cuz he always do that to my sister.
usually, this naughty nephew after giggles a while, he will shout at you to wake you up. so i planned to ignore him. but to my surprise, this time, no one shouted. instead, he ran out of my room.
after a few seconds, i can feel someone is walking up to my bed again. so i continue to keep my eyes closed and wait for "him" to take action. then, i heard some mah jong sound which made me believe that it was really my aunty and nephew who came to my house. however, something is not right. the "him" did not shout. "he" again, ran out of my room.
i started to feel strange as my real nephew will not act in this way and if he really does, his mum would already followed him up and stopped him from disturbing my sleep!
nevermind, i tried to calm myself and then! something scary happened. i seriously can feel something is crawling on me!!! from my legs towards my body!!! i tried to believe that it was my nephew but common sense tells me that it wasnt him, its "something" else. so i tried to open my eyes and scold (i remembered scolding is useful to chase the dirty things away, make them scared of you then they will not disturb you anymore). however, i could not open my eyes nor my mouth.
so, i prayed. after few times of mumbling amitabbha silently in my heart, the "him" ran away. and i swear i can feel him running off my room, towards the stair case..
scared or not??
i hope this will not happen to me again as i am really afraid of ghost!!!
choi!!! shooo!!!! get lost!!!
1:21 PM
preparation of exam...
exam is just around the corner..
frankly speaking, i m a little nervous...
nervous bcuz i think i m too stupid at the moment to go for exams,
and also bcuz i think i have not digest all the lectures yet...
i have so many things to memorize...
i m reli worried for my taxation n ACR... ACC i THINK, i wont fail as i m alwaz good in memorizing facts during exams...
taxation : too many formats n sub sections that confused me, makes me cant memorize properly... i dont think i will fail but i know there is huge possibility that i wont get good grades... sigh...
ACR : i dunno what m i reading n memorizing... the facts r funny to me, n the notes r incomplete as the lecturer's style of teaching i until now also cant accept... he likes to jump from notes to notes... i think i will have to put more effort in it...
ACC : currently the best paper but IF anything goes wrong on that day, i will DIE... audit isnt as easy as i tot... hope by today i will b able to memorize all the points...
its too late to talk bout mood right now... its time to fight with my own mood... i m slightly out of the schedule, today must gambathe to get myself back into the schedule planned earlier... or i will suffer from not enough time to study n ended up getting a poor grade...
so ppl, pls pls pls pls pls pls wish me luck ya!!! n for those whose exams r around the corners, good luck to u too!!!
8:13 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2008 COLOURED.
mum's love
i was sleeping on the floor,
in mummy's room...
then mummy came in,
saw me lying there...
with only a bolster,
no pillow...
mummy quickly go to her bed,
take her pillow n put under my head,
and said :
"silly girl, take a pillow ma..."
i feel so so warm inside...
i love my mum!!
she is so so caring n CUTEE!!!!
MUACKSS mum~
5:51 PM
Tuesday, December 23, 2008 COLOURED.
stomach ache
got stomach ache again! How come it never goes off after i sleep last nite? Haih. Mom is getting better n is happy,no,i should say very happy these few days cuz she is finally free from kpj's jail. Yep,she is 55 now n retire edi! So happy for her. Now i love my house more edi. Haha.
9:13 AM
Sunday, December 21, 2008 COLOURED.
so unfortunate
recently,my house is reli unfortunate. I was being admitted,then my youngest sis got surgery on her ear lobes,then my mom got admitted due to bacteria infection on de stomach,n now,grandma's turn to get lungs infection. But everyone noes,she got it is bcuz her mouth is too itchy,likes to eat things tat she should never touch. I reli dunno wat is her prob. Always create prob tat makes mummy mad. There was once,mom is on leave,n she brought suleng to c dentist. Suddenly one of de aunt called n said grandma's leg is swelling again (must b she simply eat things again) n need to c doctor. N she even asked mom to come home n bring her to de hospital. Hello! U r 50+ years old n worked in a clinic before,dun tell me u dunno how to bring ur mom to c a doctor! Mom wasn't free at de moment too,so she asked my aunt to bring her to de hospital. Ok,fine.v tot de file is edi closed. Siapa tau when de next day mom went to work,de ppl gave her a bill n asked her to pay. It was my grandma's bill. Wahlaueh! One aunt n grandma,2 also loaded ppl,one doc consultation fee also REFUSE to pay! Wat is tisa? I reli dunno wat is wrong wif tis family. I used to feel happy to b in tis family LAST TIME when i was still young. But de older i am,de more i hate tis family! Everyone isn't as nice as i tot they were,n they are all evils! Shit!
9:05 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2008 COLOURED.
stress
i really can feel the stress right now... some may say, i m weak, mentally n physically.. n i truly admit that... i m weak especially mentally...
recently, i tend to get fed-up n mang zhang easily.. i also dont know y... i reli wish everything is under my control but things just doesnt b like what u wish they would b... haiz!!!!!
is it really that hard to get things settled down?? well, i m still challenging myself to settle everything on my own, but i really cant help throwing temper... i wish i could b more emotionally stable...
what can i do to make myself stay calm all the time?? i need to release my stress... to b free of the worries n pressure from exams, mom's health, trouble caused by someone, dad's unfair treatment, etc...
n to make thing worse, my dearest mom is sick... i feel sad when i see her lying on the bed in the hospital that nite... but luckily, she is fine now... but i still cant help being worried bout her health now...
christmas is coming, but i have not feel the joy, in fact, no joy is in my heart at this moment... i wish to find back the old me, the one that is more positive n happy...
1:24 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008 COLOURED.
moodless
i dunno y,
i reli have no mood to study now!!
christmas is just around the corner,
new year is on its way,
everyone is busy planning where to go,
how much to spend,
where to count down,
etc etc...
whereas i,
can only stay at home,
feeling stressed with the stupid subjects...
taxation, ACR, ACC..
i m reli afraid that i will not b able to memorize all the facts...
its all bout memorizing for accounting students...
i m reli worried...
what can i do to make myself happy n continue to study??
9:19 AM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008 COLOURED.
new entry!
ok,
xanga caused me lots of problems...
sign in takes more than 30 mins,
change font colour take more than 5 mins,
n post a blog takes more than an hour!!!
so,
i have decided to use back the old blog,
so that i wont have trouble posting things that i wans~
of cuz,
i certainly will miss the smileys available in xanga,
n the ease of tracing new weblog comments...
how nice if blogspot could provide such service...
haha...
7:27 PM
Tuesday, December 30, 2008 COLOURED.
my pillow~
see, mummy loves my "shit" pillow.. hehe..
will try to take more videos on ppl's reactions towards my cutie pillow~
mum's best expression was after i end the video.
she said :-
"this shit very cute hor? see, got mouth, nose n eye brows... how come this shit's shape like this ger?? aren't it supposed to be in oval??"
yes, the title for this post is choi... why is that so?? cause i met, no, not met. should say, i felt something unusual which i wish to "choi" it away...
it is something which i am afraid off the most, which is "dirty things" (肮脏东西).
the unwanted experience begins with a lazy bum, me, who wished to continue sleeping though its time to wake up for revision...
the alalm clock rang but i continue to sleep. suddenly, i can feel that there is a kid running up to my bed, n giggle softly beside of me. i thought it was my little nephew, cuz he always do that to my sister.
usually, this naughty nephew after giggles a while, he will shout at you to wake you up. so i planned to ignore him. but to my surprise, this time, no one shouted. instead, he ran out of my room.
after a few seconds, i can feel someone is walking up to my bed again. so i continue to keep my eyes closed and wait for "him" to take action. then, i heard some mah jong sound which made me believe that it was really my aunty and nephew who came to my house. however, something is not right. the "him" did not shout. "he" again, ran out of my room.
i started to feel strange as my real nephew will not act in this way and if he really does, his mum would already followed him up and stopped him from disturbing my sleep!
nevermind, i tried to calm myself and then! something scary happened. i seriously can feel something is crawling on me!!! from my legs towards my body!!! i tried to believe that it was my nephew but common sense tells me that it wasnt him, its "something" else. so i tried to open my eyes and scold (i remembered scolding is useful to chase the dirty things away, make them scared of you then they will not disturb you anymore). however, i could not open my eyes nor my mouth.
so, i prayed. after few times of mumbling amitabbha silently in my heart, the "him" ran away. and i swear i can feel him running off my room, towards the stair case..
scared or not??
i hope this will not happen to me again as i am really afraid of ghost!!!
nervous bcuz i think i m too stupid at the moment to go for exams,
and also bcuz i think i have not digest all the lectures yet...
i have so many things to memorize...
i m reli worried for my taxation n ACR... ACC i THINK, i wont fail as i m alwaz good in memorizing facts during exams...
taxation : too many formats n sub sections that confused me, makes me cant memorize properly... i dont think i will fail but i know there is huge possibility that i wont get good grades... sigh...
ACR : i dunno what m i reading n memorizing... the facts r funny to me, n the notes r incomplete as the lecturer's style of teaching i until now also cant accept... he likes to jump from notes to notes... i think i will have to put more effort in it...
ACC : currently the best paper but IF anything goes wrong on that day, i will DIE... audit isnt as easy as i tot... hope by today i will b able to memorize all the points...
its too late to talk bout mood right now... its time to fight with my own mood... i m slightly out of the schedule, today must gambathe to get myself back into the schedule planned earlier... or i will suffer from not enough time to study n ended up getting a poor grade...
so ppl, pls pls pls pls pls pls wish me luck ya!!! n for those whose exams r around the corners, good luck to u too!!!
got stomach ache again! How come it never goes off after i sleep last nite? Haih. Mom is getting better n is happy,no,i should say very happy these few days cuz she is finally free from kpj's jail. Yep,she is 55 now n retire edi! So happy for her. Now i love my house more edi. Haha.
recently,my house is reli unfortunate. I was being admitted,then my youngest sis got surgery on her ear lobes,then my mom got admitted due to bacteria infection on de stomach,n now,grandma's turn to get lungs infection. But everyone noes,she got it is bcuz her mouth is too itchy,likes to eat things tat she should never touch. I reli dunno wat is her prob. Always create prob tat makes mummy mad. There was once,mom is on leave,n she brought suleng to c dentist. Suddenly one of de aunt called n said grandma's leg is swelling again (must b she simply eat things again) n need to c doctor. N she even asked mom to come home n bring her to de hospital. Hello! U r 50+ years old n worked in a clinic before,dun tell me u dunno how to bring ur mom to c a doctor! Mom wasn't free at de moment too,so she asked my aunt to bring her to de hospital. Ok,fine.v tot de file is edi closed. Siapa tau when de next day mom went to work,de ppl gave her a bill n asked her to pay. It was my grandma's bill. Wahlaueh! One aunt n grandma,2 also loaded ppl,one doc consultation fee also REFUSE to pay! Wat is tisa? I reli dunno wat is wrong wif tis family. I used to feel happy to b in tis family LAST TIME when i was still young. But de older i am,de more i hate tis family! Everyone isn't as nice as i tot they were,n they are all evils! Shit!
i really can feel the stress right now... some may say, i m weak, mentally n physically.. n i truly admit that... i m weak especially mentally...
recently, i tend to get fed-up n mang zhang easily.. i also dont know y... i reli wish everything is under my control but things just doesnt b like what u wish they would b... haiz!!!!!
is it really that hard to get things settled down?? well, i m still challenging myself to settle everything on my own, but i really cant help throwing temper... i wish i could b more emotionally stable...
what can i do to make myself stay calm all the time?? i need to release my stress... to b free of the worries n pressure from exams, mom's health, trouble caused by someone, dad's unfair treatment, etc...
n to make thing worse, my dearest mom is sick... i feel sad when i see her lying on the bed in the hospital that nite... but luckily, she is fine now... but i still cant help being worried bout her health now...
christmas is coming, but i have not feel the joy, in fact, no joy is in my heart at this moment... i wish to find back the old me, the one that is more positive n happy...
Hello! A blog of Mine
Do not ripp! or do some Spammings.
Tag b4 you leave and do feel free to look around!!!
NAVIGATE @ THE SMALL WORD "COLOURS" UP THERE!!! BESIDE THIS DISCLAIMER! LOOK! (SRY IF ITS HARD TO FIND)
